Hello and Goodbye Sweet Angel

About two weeks ago, I had a dream that I finally met my niece Elsie. In my journal, I wrote: I remember holding her and feeling so happy and thinking what a beautiful baby my niece is and how much I loved her. Who knows? Maybe I’ll be back to NY to visit soon. A week ago Thursday, the lawyer confirmed my court date and my return to NY was scheduled for late September. Though three months away, I began feeling the anticipation and excitement of reuniting with family and friends and meeting my niece.

I never imagined the first time I met my niece would also be my last and that I would never have the chance to hold her like I did in my dream. I received the heartbreaking phone call a week ago Saturday morning that my niece Elsie, after blessing us with her presence for three short weeks, had passed away. For a brief moment, I was upset with God, asking, Why God? Why would you bless my brother and his girlfriend with a baby only to take her away? Why would you let me have that dream and feel that love if I would never have the chance to hold her and meet her while she was still alive and watch her grow up? And then I remembered back to several weeks ago when my inner voice whispered that something would happen that would be difficult to understand and that I would need to trust in Divine order and have faith that God would always be with me and would guide me through this. God, may my brother and Elsie’s mom feel and keep this truth in their hearts.

Elsie would have been one month old on July 4th. Over the coming weeks, the reality that Elsie is no longer physically here will begin to set in. My heart is telling me to acknowledge that we’ve just suffered a tremendous loss-especially my brother and his girlfriend-and to accept the range of emotions we will experience while grieving. And may my little brother and his girlfriend know that if they ever feel like their resolve to go on is dwindling and their pain feels unbearable, they can call on us-family and friends who love them very much-and know that they are not alone in this, for we are here for them and with them. One day at a time, with faith, love, and courage, they will learn to live with the loss, and find meaning and purpose in life again.

Thank you God for sharing Elsie with us. And though our sweet little angel has returned to her Creator, she will always be a part of our family, and the love she shared and inspired, the joy she brought into our lives, her smile, and her memory will be with us forever. We love you and miss you Elsie Leona Leigh Lainez. Till we meet again…

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You are an angel in heaven where you belong

But to see you again, my heart will always long

I hate what happened, I wish I could press rewind

But at least I got precious memories that will last a lifetime

In just three weeks, you lit up my world

The greatest gift I ever had, my beautiful baby girl

From the moment I laid eyes on you, I instantly fell in love

Then I fell on my face to give thanks to the man above

I don’t know why God took you but I trust in His plan

Through all this pain and suffering, I will emerge a better man

Thank you all for your love and support

And remember to hold the ones you love because life is short


About Magaly L.

Five Facts About Me: 1. I was born in El Salvador, grew up in NY, and after being in the United States for almost 33 years, I finally became a citizen in 2013. I was super excited when I voted for the first time! 2. My personal favorites: chocolate, desserts, dancing, the beach, leisure travel, reading, juicing, gardening, cooking, spending time with family, and writing. I really do love chocolate. I prefer dark chocolate, but any chocolate is better than none. I also love red velvet cupcakes from my favorite bakery in NYC, Two Little Red Hens on the Upper East Side. And I love spending time in nature. There's something so peaceful about listening to the birds or listening to the waves break, that centers me in the present moment and reminds me that Divine order is at work in my life. 3. I come from a large family and I love it! My parents, two brothers, one sister, LOTS of cousins, aunts, uncles, abuelos, and my "gotitas de amor"-my nieces and nephews. 4. I am an educator both by training and at heart. 5. I have been living with PNES (psychogenic non-epileptic seizures) since 2007. Though this condition has been life-altering and challenging to live with at times, it has also led me to a more fulfilling life, strengthening my faith and helping me have the courage to pursue my passions and chase a couple of dreams.
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