I experienced feelings of sadness and discouragement today. At times, I even cried. What made me even more sad was knowing that I didn’t have family nearby to lighten the load or take my attention away from these feelings. I’m an affectionate person and I truly miss their company and the abundance of hugs and laughter that were always readily available. I am learning however, not to suppress these feelings, but to pay attention to them and use them to identify what my needs are. Part of making choices that are in harmony with my well-being is developing an awareness of what my needs are.
I’m currently listening to the audio book by Deepak Chopra titled, What Are You Hungry For? In the book, he talks about rewriting your story. The process begins with an awareness of one’s inner dialogue followed by substituting negative dialogue into positive affirmations and making positive choices. He said a powerful statement that grabbed my attention. “Reality,” said Deepak, “is always renewing itself.”
I used this technique this evening to address my concerns about teaching again. It bothers me that I’m still having a hard time letting go of the “ineffective” label my former supervisor gave me-a label which also states that I “lack the potential to impact student learning.” Inspiring a love of learning is one of the main reasons I pursued a career in teaching. It’s interesting to note that the original principal who hired me, hired me because she saw the potential in me. So I told myself I would be supported in my new job and that I would have the skills and resources to do my job effectively.
Committing to living a more balanced, fulfilling life takes work-especially when we must release old beliefs and habits that no longer serve our greater purpose and replace them with more positive, life affirming ones. It’s not always easy, but I believe this journey is worth it.