Chumbawamba has this song in which the lyrics say, “I get knocked down, but I get up again, you’re never going to keep me down.” Well, today I felt like saying, the hell with all of this. I got back up but I’m changing direction. It shouldn’t be such a struggle right?
When I first arrived in Hawaii, I visited an elementary school at the end of my block to inquire about opportunities for substitute teaching. I was excited to learn that they were in need of substitute teachers and after interviewing with the assistant principal, I received a letter to take to the district office showing that I was placed on their preferred list. I went through the process of ordering my transcript, completing the application, getting a TB test done, and then going to the district office to get fingerprinted. I figured I’d be working in about 2-3 weeks. Today, I received a letter stating that because I had checked the box that I have been terminated from employment, I now need to provide a written statement so they can “complete their review for suitability of employment.” They also cc’ed this letter to the principal of the school I had interviewed with and who had placed me on their preferred list. Indeed, I was upset. I began wondering, perhaps this is the Universe telling me it’s time to move on and focus my attention and energy elsewhere.
Tomorrow, Healthy Schools Day will be hosted in the State Capitol. Prior to receiving this letter, I was looking forward to being inspired by the different wellness initiatives and school gardens emerging in our state. I was also looking forward to attending the Oahu Farm to School Network meeting taking place right after the event. I’m having second thoughts about going.
I’ll let you know what happens in tomorrow’s post. For now, I acknowledge my feelings of frustration, and remind myself to detach from the outcome, trust that the Universe is working out the details, and express gratitude for the blessings of today.